Well, i'm now at 114kg! One more and i've officially lost 20kg.
I plan on joining the ULU gym on monday inshaallah, that'll be good and will hopefully speed up the phase 1 process.
I don't know how I feel about the weightloss. People keep asking me and they don't realise how hard it is for your brain to assimilate with the reality that is your changing body.
I watched a video by David So and how fat was a part of his identity and it made a lot of things click into place and I completely understood where he was coming from and finally felt like someone had put into words what I'd felt all along but could never do the same.
It's hilarious how society makes you focus on weight so much, but when you actually allow your weight to define you, you're ~too sensitive~. I mean it's ridiculous, no matter what extreme you are on the scale, weight will always be a challenge for you and that challenge is a part of your life, and to act like it isn't is almost denying an entire part of you. It's a sad reality, but it's a reality people don't want to talk about.
I'm excited about the gym. Now that i'm lighter and my energy levels are better, gym should be easier and my knees shouldn't hurt any more. Exciting!
I plan on joining the ULU gym on monday inshaallah, that'll be good and will hopefully speed up the phase 1 process.
I don't know how I feel about the weightloss. People keep asking me and they don't realise how hard it is for your brain to assimilate with the reality that is your changing body.
I watched a video by David So and how fat was a part of his identity and it made a lot of things click into place and I completely understood where he was coming from and finally felt like someone had put into words what I'd felt all along but could never do the same.
It's hilarious how society makes you focus on weight so much, but when you actually allow your weight to define you, you're ~too sensitive~. I mean it's ridiculous, no matter what extreme you are on the scale, weight will always be a challenge for you and that challenge is a part of your life, and to act like it isn't is almost denying an entire part of you. It's a sad reality, but it's a reality people don't want to talk about.
I'm excited about the gym. Now that i'm lighter and my energy levels are better, gym should be easier and my knees shouldn't hurt any more. Exciting!
